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Friday, June 7, 2013

Feeling Kind of Froggy?

You already know my love of Lewis.  He has the ability to articulate emotions and thoughts I may never have been able to even express or fully recognize.  The last week I've been ruminating on many of those thoughts and emotions without bringing them to full light.  A quote from Lewis on Facebook today sent me down a delightful rabbit hole that pulled all those things to the surface and shone a big, bright light on them.  I've always struggled with the 'undulation' in my Christian walk.  Many seasons I have felt on fire and in line with the Lord's will, other seasons I have felt like the lukewarm Christians Christ spat out in Revelation, still other times I have simply felt numb.  Along those same lines, I have seasons where I am comfortable with and even excited about the fact that this world is not our home, wonderful though this world is because of our Creator's word, I can see that it is but a dim shadow of the glory yet to come.  Other seasons I cling to this land we are sojourning in - I despair over the state of it, it's future, the thought of leaving those I love, I experience almost inconsolable loss at the idea of my children growing up for some reason without me and I without them.  Oh, how small I can make our Lord! Similarly, I swing between not seeing the eternal value of those around me, and my influence on them, to being overwhelmed by it.

This is where Lewis comes in.  His illumination in these areas brings me hope, reminds me of the truth and fills me with courage to continue this race, even through my 'troughs'.  Join me as a fellow frog through this maze of Lewis lily pads.

To my undulation, and (for lack of a better phrase) spiritual mood swings, Lewis speaks...
“Humans are amphibians...half spirit and half animal...as spirits they belong to the eternal world, but as animals they inhabit time. This means that while their spirit can be directed to an eternal object, their bodies, passions, and imaginations are in continual change, for to be in time, means to change. Their nearest approach to constancy, therefore, is undulation--the repeated return to a level from which they repeatedly fall back, a series of troughs and peaks.”
The Scewtape Letters 
(and yes this is where Froggy comes from, I prefer them over most amphibians... don't ask me why...) 
 “Be not deceived, Wormwood, our cause is never more in jeopardy than when a human, no longer desiring but still intending to do our Enemy's will, looks round upon a universe in which every trace of Him seems to have vanished, and asks why he has been forsaken, and still obeys.” The Screwtape Letters 
“He cannot "tempt" to virtue as we do to vice. He wants them to learn to walk and must therefore take away His hand; and if only the will to walk is really there He is pleased even with their stumbles.”The Screwtape Letters 
“To please God… to be a real ingredient in the divine happiness… to be loved by God, not merely pitied, but delighted in as an artist delights in his work or a father in a son- it seems impossible, a weight or burden of glory which our thoughts can hardly sustain. But so it is.” The Weight of Glory

To my relations with others he says...

“It is a serious thing to live in a society of possible gods and goddesses, to remember that the dullest most uninteresting person you talk to may one day be a creature which,if you say it now, you would be strongly tempted to worship, or else a horror and a corruption such as you now meet, if at all, only in a nightmare. All day long we are, in some degree helping each other to one or the other of these destinations. It is in the light of these overwhelming possibilities, it is with the awe and the circumspection proper to them, that we should conduct all of our dealings with one another, all friendships, all loves, all play, all politics. There are no ordinary people. You have never talked to a mere mortal. nations, cultures, arts, civilizations - These are mortal, and their life is to ours as the life of a gnat. But it is immortals whom we joke with, work with, marry, snub, and exploit - immortal horrors or everlasting splendors.” The Weight of Glory 
“It may be possible for each to think too much of his own potential glory hereafter; it is hardly possible for him to think too often or too deeply about that of his neighbor. The load, or weight, or burden of my neighbor's glory should be laid daily on my back, a load so heavy that only humility can carry it, and the backs of the proud will be broken..."The Weight of Glory 

To my conflicts over love of this world he says...

“If I find in myself desires which nothing in this world can satisfy, the only logical explanation is that I was made for another world.”Mere Christianity 
“In speaking of this desire for our own faroff country, which we find in ourselves even now, I feel a certain shyness. I am almost committing an indecency. I am trying to rip open the inconsolable secret in each one of you—the secret which hurts so much that you take your revenge on it by calling it names like Nostalgia and Romanticism and Adolescence; the secret also which pierces with such sweetness that when, in very intimate conversation, the mention of it becomes imminent, we grow awkward and affect to laugh at ourselves; the secret we cannot hide and cannot tell, though we desire to do both. We cannot tell it because it is a desire for something that has never actually appeared in our experience. We cannot hide it because our experience is constantly suggesting it, and we betray ourselves like lovers at the mention of a name. Our commonest expedient is to call it beauty and behave as if that had settled the matter. Wordsworth’s expedient was to identify it with certain moments in his own past. But all this is a cheat. If Wordsworth had gone back to those moments in the past, he would not have found the thing itself, but only the reminder of it; what he remembered would turn out to be itself a remembering. The books or the music in which we thought the beauty was located will betray us if we trust to them; it was not in them, it only came through them, and what came through them was longing. These things—the beauty, the memory of our own past—are good images of what we really desire; but if they are mistaken for the thing itself they turn into dumb idols, breaking the hearts of their worshippers. For they are not the thing itself; they are only the scent of a flower we have not found, the echo of a tune we have not heard, news from a country we have never yet visited.” The Weight of Glory 
“At present we are on the outside of the world, the wrong side of the door. We discern the freshness and purity of morning, but they do not make us fresh and pure. We cannot mingle with the splendours we see. But all the leaves of the New Testament are rustling with the rumour that it will not always be so. Some day, God willing, we shall get in.” The Weight of Glory 
“Now, if we are made for heaven, the desire for our proper place will be already in us, but not yet attached to the true object, and will even appear as the rival of that object […] If a transtemporal, transfinite good is our real destiny, then any other good on which our desire fixes must be in some degree fallacious, must bear at best only a symbolical relation to what will truly satisfy.” The Weight of Glory 
“There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind.”C.S. Lewis (can't find a book reference?)




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